YSaturday, 12 May 2007
People say that in times of adversity, your true friends will be the ones who remain behind. But how would you know if they're not staying for some other reason? I think people are still inherently selfish..they do things to make you feel like they did it in your interests but actually they do them just to make themselves feel better..guess I'm guilty of that too..sometimes. These past 2 days, i've come to realised that i'm actually quite petty..really surprising revelation. I know i'm evil..don't see the reason for being so nice..heck. But ah well..i have gotten so used to being indifferent about so many things. I've hardly let ppl or things ppl say affect me coz i just don't care and don't bother and even if someone does something that should be pissing me off, i can't be bothered to expend energy to get angry and worked up and waste time complaining to others about it..passiveness and indifference..i've been like that for a long while ever since my sailing days which taught me a hell lot about life, competition(not only on the water) and how ppl change when they want something badly enough. But today something has been stirred up inside and its suddenly strange how worked up i can be...which hasn't happened in ages. On a lighter note, its funny how the most unexpected ppl turn out to be the best confidantes even if they're far away. I'm glad these ppl came into my life..glad for the positivity they bring and glad for the objectivity they have.