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YMonday, 30 July 2007

Today's been a nice slack day..juz taught in the morning and i was home by 1.30pm..shiok day. Anyway, i have recently discovered that we(singaporeans) are automatically opted in for organ donation upon death. I, being rather superstitious, still cannot get around this fact! And i found out that well..of coz we can opt out but..then we'll be given least priority when we need an organ (which is fair i guess) and also there's a lot of bureaucratic work to cut thru like all the forms to fill up. But the thing is..i had to find out about it all by myself. And it's not exactly common knowledge since all my peers whom i've asked were equally clueless that they were all opted in until i told them. bahhhh.

Oh and a strange thing happened today. Huang suddenly called me to badger me for brands for his expensive and decadent wallet to errr 'celebrate his goodness' which he plans to buy this weekend with the killing he has made from all the stocks..boasting as usual that he is on the way to financing his own education. bugger. show-off. irritant. I still think it's an absolute waste of money to buy something for the sake of the brand so obviously i gave him a piece of my mind and he said i was nagging! whatever man..nobody asked him to call me to ask for such stupid information and i had to endure his warped reasoning. For me..i'll juz buy it if i like it, not coz of the brand although if the brand is good and i like it then the brand itself becomes a plus point.

ok i think this is enough ranting for now..and tmr i'm turning 20. Old. old. old. old. but still not old enough..if there's one wish that can be granted, i'll want to be wiser...haha

Ychar;
Monday, July 30, 2007

YWednesday, 25 July 2007

Woohoo! I've passed my driving test at last!!!! yay! And in the rain too! haha ok actually it's not that big a deal. I've been driving for ages already just that now i can officially drive on my own! yay!

Ychar;
Wednesday, July 25, 2007

YMonday, 23 July 2007

Yay i have just completed reading the final of the harry potter series! one of my favourite 'childrens book' that has nv outgrown me..but it kind of feels weird that there is no more harry potter to look forward too. aiii. i took leave for 3 days so at last i can have the luxury to sit ard and slack at home and actually read. Anyway, i was juz wondering where j.k rowling got her inspiration for those pretty villages in harry potter like ottery st catchpole?..i shall go back to london and do some research on pretty villages in the english countryside and do some exploration. suddenly i feel so suaku even though london is such a huge, cosmopolitan city..coz i've not been around uk much other than brighton, cambridge, oxford and nottingham although nottingham isn't really counted coz i only went to the uni there. so ya. this time when i go back, i have to do more exploration! maybe weekend trips or something if i get too stressed from uni work. lala.

The weekend wasn't that bad. Had yummy yummy prata and thick toast drizzled in peanut butter and condensed milk with erin and jan on sat..sinfully yummy..i have to go back there again..def. Sunday..i juz slacked at home since it was my first weekend in weeks to be free of marking!hooray! and then i met up with ken, francis and charlene for old beppu ramen. so i guess it's been pretty good meeting up with ppl esp since my social life(weekdays) has now died completely and i'm either bogged down by stuff or too tired to get my bum off my couch.

Ychar;
Monday, July 23, 2007

YFriday, 20 July 2007

I'm totally knackered. Today has been an extremely long one and I suspect i have throat ulcers coz it's hurting somewhere. I'm trying to think of how i can sum up this one long day but it's pretty hard. I had sch as usual and since it was racial harmony day, i came sportingly dressed in a punjabi costume..then i had a hard time suppressing my glee that it was my last day teaching the pri5s..although i think the lower pri are gonna give me a tougher time..but anyways..the girls kept asking why i was so happy..one girl even asked if i was getting married..omg..i would have throttled her if i could there and then. well, at least they did little things that warmed my heart like giving me cute cards and drawing me stuff.

Anyway, i've been sickened by the paedophillic acts the newspaper has been reporting this week..like the 5yr old girl who was left unsupervised by her parents in carrefour and got raped and the 7yr old girl who got molested in the national library! atrocious acts! So today i spent a good half an hr on my 2 classes warning them to be wary of ALL MEN. Even relatives shouldn't be spared! There've been so many cases of child abuse where the perpetrator was someone who was trusted in the family. Child abuse makes me sick. And paedophilles make me even sicker.

Ychar;
Friday, July 20, 2007

YThursday, 19 July 2007

What do you do when you get the ultimate sabotage and forced to do something totally ridiculous that you thought you would nv be caught dead doing. -_- I'm so dead. I hate this feeling. I don't wanna teach music anymore!!!! Not like i wanted to teach it in the first place..argh!! Just kill me before ndp celebrations..not that i'm very patriotic anyways. Retarded songs, retarded dances..and wah lao eh how can that teacher juz saboh me into leading the whole retarded thing. omg. esp just when i have smoked my way thru the whole of this week avoiding doing anything..Just coz i'm a substitute teacher doesn't mean i can be pushed around ok. Crap.

SIANZ. didn't help that today was one of my busy days of teaching, driving lesson followed by korean lesson at night..i'm soooo tired now. Korean is def a lot harder than i'd imagined and it really doesn't help that i still CANNOT distinguish certain sounds like the way they say J sounds like Ch and then double accent on J sounds like a cross between Zh and J and then...i'm completely winded up. -_+. I understand now why ys says my pronunciation is hopeless..i can't even bring myself to say otherwise. BUT i have to persevere!

I can't wait for next week...3 days of leave although that's meant for fine tuning my driving and ensuring i pass. haiii. oh crap. tmr is racial harmony day. fuck. i have to wear a costume to set a gd example. No offense to racial harmony day..i'm all for racial harmony..but..bahhhh i don't wanna wear a costume.. -_-.

Ychar;
Thursday, July 19, 2007

YMonday, 16 July 2007

Today i shouted until my ears were ringing for like 2 hours afterwards..gosh. I think one can shout oneself to deaf. and i'm gonna lose my voice soon if i carry on like that..sigh. 11 yr olds are not to be trifled with. esp the bratty ones.

Anyway..today was a rare day! I could finally spend the rest of the day at home after sch and just slack..well not really slack.. i brought another stack of stuff back to mark..but still..marking when i'm slouched comfortably at home is diff from the stressful workings of the staffroom. aiii.

AND i got my early bday pressie from yongseo today! Specially courier-ed woohoo...this was totally unexpected..but i love it!!and it's in my fav colour too..a yummy yummy green ipod nano. haha sweet.... I think this is a good week for techie surprises! First my new phone and now this! yay..

Ychar;
Monday, July 16, 2007

YSunday, 15 July 2007

It feels like ages since I last posted here. It has been an absolutely crazily busy week. One of the busiest I've had since...maybe sec4..haha. Quite amazing that i actually survived this week..and somehow i catch myself wondering why i'm putting myself through all this. I need a break. already. But at least time flies when i'm busy and at least now i don't have time to think about stupid random things and stone staring out of the window. Or brood over my dismal results.

I wouldn't say my life is really terrible now but I guess i don't feel like i'm living my life to the fullest and really enjoying what i'm doing even though teaching can be fulfilling at times. I feel like i can be doing a whole load of other things..and be carefree..and then i'll think about 2nd yr and i'll get more upset. I foresee a hard yr of mugging ahead..plus internship apps and the internship itself. And then i think of ian who's going to intern at disney for 6 mths and i think..why can't my life be like that? I feel like doing something totally crazy and trying something diff...i could live in florence and try to paint. ok scratch that..can't paint for nuts. Or i can go off to alaska and teach english..or throw myself into micronesia..or try living in hawaii..basically have an unsuccessful life financially and still be super happy..is that possible? Instead of setting myself for a career in banking..is that what i really really want?sometimes i question myself..coz i get scared after hearing about the working hours..even though i really like the work they do in ibanking.. hai. I want my life too. In a way, it's a blessing in disguise that i didn't get an internship this summer...at least i still have a life..if i want it.

Ychar;
Sunday, July 15, 2007

YSunday, 8 July 2007




Yesterday was one of the best saturdays i've had since i got back..even though i was super tired and my body just ran on adrenaline for the night..but it was fun. :)

First i'd overslept and had to call off work with a stupid excuse..and then it was off to guan's place for a singsoc meeting whereupon her very funny dad waved a sock at us and started to sing a hilarious song..'sing..sing a soc..' haha omg. if only my dad had such a good sense of humour.

After that, i rushed back home, changed, and got out again to meet the guys for dinner at clarke quay. I got super pissed with seet coz he was late AGAIN and this time he was nearly an hr and a half late..but the dinner itself was really nice. We had very authentic jap ramen..not those fusion kind that has been popping up all over the island. And nearly all the other customers there were jap so i guess it must have been a pretty good place. It was nice meeting up with the guys after so long..and to know that they're still the same esp huang. hahaha. that idiot.

And then it was off to sam's place for ian's farewell party! Lucky fella is going to orlando, florida to work for walt disney!!! That's every kid's dream job manz...really envy him. It was really nice to just hang out with geri, her bf ken, sam and greg after so long. And the party was pretty fun. We played this roulette drinking game where we chose 3 cups of yummylicious passionfruit cognac(which tasted like mango), then we took turns to spin the roulette and downed the shots as the numbers came up. And since we didn't top up..we played 'truth' for all the empty shot glasses..where skinky little secrets were unearthed by greg who was firing most of the questions..esp to unlucky me. :(. heh but all in all, it was very good fun. Although ian's friends got so drunk that many of them started to puke all over the floor and even on the wall and it got gross.

So that was how my saturday went...today i'm just staying in to mark the mountain of work i brought back on friday. :(. laziness is sinking in again. bah.
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Ychar;
Sunday, July 08, 2007

YFriday, 6 July 2007

I'm looking at all the steps ahead or at least those that i can see and i'm wondering if it'll work out like how i'd imagined it to be. Uncertainty scares me. But i must say that everything is going better than i'd expected so far and i should treasure what i have even though sometimes i feel like i'm hanging on a piece of thread.

Anyway, for once i can say i really enjoy teaching. I feel like i'm really teaching teaching now, not like last yr when half the time was spent getting the kids to stop running and playing catching in class and then sending them outside to stand for an hour. That was so exhausting..but at least now, i can channel all my energy into proper teaching and the 11yr olds have been very guai so far. which is good. except for music lessons. argh. but that has worked its way out as well. so no worries.

Oh ya, pregnant women really freak me out.

Mabel: 'My baby's coming tmr.'
Me: 'oh? you're scheduled for a casesarean?'
Mabel: 'No, but i can feel it.'

omg..doesn't help that i'm seated next to another heavily pregnant woman. And they keep having the weirdest conversations that i don't really want to listen to now. I even had a nightmare last night about mabel going into labour right in the middle of class and i'm standing there helpless. shit. This really freaks me out.

Ychar;
Friday, July 06, 2007

YWednesday, 4 July 2007

I'm feeling totally exhausted and burnt out. Maybe i am having too much on my plate right now..don't even want to think about next week when i have to fit in one more thing into my already bursting schedule. I don't even know why i'm putting myself through this..but i know i just have to.

Anyway...it's lucky that my sch timetable so far has been pretty nice..i'm only teaching english and music..omg music! argh. But at least the p5s are an easier lot to handle than the p3s..although p1s would be nice to teach too. Mabel's tummy is so huge that everytime i stand next to her, i have this feeling that she's just gonna go into labour any minute...which makes me freak out. Don't wanna stress her too much with any complaints about the class so this round, i'm putting in more effort to manage the class better...if a heavily pregnant woman can do that..then so can i.

Actually a lot has happened in the past few days and even though i'm totally knackered, there's just all these stuff zinging in my head. Kind of helps that i'm busy the entire day so that leaves me with little time to brood and think. Just what i need for now.

Ychar;
Wednesday, July 04, 2007

YSunday, 1 July 2007

Ahhhhh i've just had my fill of long-awaited retail therapy! haha. Feeling super relaxed and happy now even though i kinda overspent..but heck. I need this. Had lunch with joanne today and then we spent the rest of the day shopping :).

Conversation over lunch was soon turned to whether to put family over career and about kids..which reminds me of the conversation i had with esther(who hates kids totally) just yesterday..so anyway, jo was telling me about this girl she knows(our age) who just had a baby! shotgun marriage! omg. And there we(or at least me) were thinking we'll probably not get married til we graduate and have a stable income and feel ready and responsible enough to have kids and ppl our age are already having kids now..omg. But i guess it was a good thing she didn't even consider abortion. so kudos to the girl for having the courage to keep the baby. Abortion is murder!! i can't believe some of my friends actually think it's ok..for the sake of uni and their career and about people's perceptions.. :(. ppl...just because u don't see the baby, it doesn't mean that it doesn't exist. Although getting married just coz u get pregnant isn't reason enough to get married..at least not for me..coz marriage is a huge life-long commitment that takes a lot more than love and kids to keep it going strong..although love is of coz the main factor.

And...another thought..why do ppl get pressured to get attached once they enter uni and see all their friends hooking up? From what i know so far amongst my friends..here's my take..esp for those in nus and ntu where they stay in hostels and practically live in uni and their whole lives only revolve around sch and uni friends. And when friends get attached and start to pangseh you for lunch dinner breakfast tea..blah..and u start to see so many couples on campus, and v-day comes and goes with those silly things unis do..i guess that feeling of loneliness might sink in and the pressure builds up.

Of coz there're the stronger, more independent ladies! who do not need men in their lives..and are either too busy stringing and arranging all the dates so that monday would never meet tuesday and wednesday would not meet thursday or just too busy turning down all.

Anyhow...touching on independence..we really do not need to depend on men..regardless of whether marriage is on the cards..afterall, what century are we living in??We women can work and take care of the family and are expected to do a whole lot more than men..not like it's hard..BUT being an independent woman doesn't mean we make allowances for ungentlemenly men! So ladies..while we take pride in being independent, don't let your pride and independence get in the way and just enjoy it when guys are gentlemenly..while it lasts at least.

ok maybe i'm just disgusted with how ungentlemanly guys here are. hmmph.

Ychar;
Sunday, July 01, 2007