And so this marks the end of all the weeks of planning for the fcuk camp. Freshers' camp. I think it was quite a success and even though it rained while we were at sentosa yesterday, we still weren't that behind schedule and the amazing race thingy still went well except for the chimpanzees which stole our fries and scared the shit out of janice and me. ha. I also saw a side of the guys that is hardly revealed. Didn't know they are THAT kinky esp doing those dance moves..omg. I think our juniors must have been freaked out..wonder what they must think about london now..

After sleeping the whole day away, my head still feels groggy. I'm thinking about opportuniies that i've overlooked and missed and that it may not be such a bad thing afterall. Now i just have to make the best out of the rest of my summer break, pig out, shop and enjoy hot hot singapore before going back to london and into another embrace.

And i am in great need of exercise. I need to get off my bum and walk more, drive less, eat less, crawl to the gym, swim, get a tan maybe and discover a great way to get and maintain abs other than sailing. I have to stop facebooking and cut down on tv. Korean dramas are too addictive..i have to get off my bum more...or maybe i should juz do hula hoop while watching them. hmmm.

Ychar;
Wednesday, August 29, 2007

"change something you cannot accept, accept something you cannot change"

You just have to decide what you want to change and what you want to accept.

Ychar;
Tuesday, August 21, 2007

It's been a grouchy emo day which culminated in 5 hours of watching my latest addiction-Snow queen. Hyun bin is ultimate hotness and bumming to korean dramas is a good way to keep stuff off my mind if only for a while.

My mind's in a whirl. As more options come up to be considered, I'm getting more and more confused. I wanna go back to london asap. There's just too many things to be settled. Recently, I've been considering other paths and options and I feel like I'm wasting time here in sg even though I've already filled up my summer with all the constructive things I can think of. My life is in total transit and I don't seem to be moving forward. I feel stagnant. I can't think of anything I really want to do in singapore and everything that i have to do can only be done when i go back. There's only so much I can plan. The realisation that my real life may now be in london has hit me. Sure, being home is nice and there's only one home. But the only way forward for me is in london. Too many things I wanna do.

Emo-ing to maroon 5's 'makes me wonder'. Somehow I think shirlyn tan can sing it better.

Ychar;
Tuesday, August 21, 2007

And so we had our formal induction yesterday. Kind of got me thinking about last yr before i'd left for london and all the camp stuff. haha feel oldddd lah. But anyhow, it was nice that the whole induction went smoothly and i got to know some juniors esp the roseberians. Rosebery is the best hall ever! ha.

After the induction, i had dinner with the family at Chang at dempsey road. It was sort of a farewell dinner for kor since he went back to glasgow last night. Chang is really good! Yummy korean barbeque and yummy stews too. Made me miss assa a lot. (Note to self:-Find out if koreans really do eat barbequed stuff very often). Why is it most of the korean restaurants in sg are korean barbeque restaurants?hmmmm i'm sure there're other korean food...must check with ys.

And today..i juz bummed around at home, read my book and slacked. There's suddenly been a whole lot of good korean shows on scv now..yay. More reasons to bum at home and not go out. Like 'The snow queen' with hyun bin in it..he's so ooh la la hottt! and from certain angles, he looks like kwon sang woo esp with the rugged unshaven look. oh my. haha.

Next week is my LAST WEEK at teaching! yay! can't wait for friday to come! tmr, i have to go to the gym and shed off some calories and swim and attempt to tan with whatever sun we're getting these days. Feeling really fat at the moment. bahhh :(.

Ychar;
Sunday, August 19, 2007

It's been a nice slack week since i didn't have to teach yest or today. heh. Last night i went to wala wala after class with my brother, ken, herbert and elliott. The Unxpected is one of the best bands in sg def! Had a great night of amazing music with shirlyn tan's powerful vocals..haha and she sabohed ell to sing a bday song to some girl..super funny. Also bumped into shaun toh, zhicao and helena..really long time no see.. And after staying for 3 sets, i had to drive the guys back since all of them drank..haiiii ken was the most supportive coz he kept telling my brother to shut up and stop talking so i could concentrate..ell, the most reassuring since he actually FELL ASLEEP while i drove! woohoo! ok although herb was juz too glad when i reached his house..haiii this is why i hate giving ppl a lift..super stressful and super scary. :(

Ychar;
Friday, August 17, 2007

I've been feeling so grouchy and fat. Been over-indulging and eating too much these days. I need to go on a diet and exercise...yuck. The last time i ran was like ermz 5 or 6 months ago..but these days i'm feeling motivated to start exercising again. And yes, i'm even motivated to run. Today during my breaks, i drew up an exercise and diet plan..haha i have to have to have to stick to it and follow it relentlessly. Hate this fat, pale, flabby feeling. :( :(

Ychar;
Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Ychar;
Friday, August 10, 2007

It's been a busy start to my week so far but it's been a lot better than all the past weeks. Tomorrow marks the start of my 5 days break from teaching! yes! haha..And my lazy wed plan has suddenly been turned into a steamboat lunch at steph's place. I foresee a lot of food and pigging out. oh no. And i'm going for ndp parade on thurs...it'd better be good..

Anyway, i've been noticing this for a while...When waitresses pull out a seat for a couple approaching the table, why do singaporean ladies cross over and take the other seat and let the guy take the pulled-out one?? I've seen this SO many times that i've lost count. And so I was puzzling over this for a few days and then I came to a conclusion--Singaporean ladies are unaccustomed to acts of gentlemanly-ness that they don't recognise it even when it's staring at them in the face. They are so not used to the idea that their chair would be pulled out for them(which would happen ALL the time if they were with or have been out before with a gentleman) so it doesn't even occur to them for one moment that the pulled-out chair could be for them.
OK i admit there are a few gentlemen amongst singaporean men and i do know like errr 3 of them? And this is just my observation...then again, it could be a way of women showing their independence and security that they don't require any chilvarous acts by men. haha hmmm actually i quite like the idea of showing my independence but NAH...ladies should be treated like ladies. hahaha.

Ychar;
Tuesday, August 07, 2007

It's been a pretty good week on the whole. I have found my purpose in life again after recently being inspired. Plans can always be changed and I shouldn't be so set on just achieving something so specific coz it may not be what's best for me and may not even be what I really really really want deep down. Even though what I'm doing now may not seem relevant to what I want to do in the future career-wise, now..I don't think that matters much coz I think I'm definitely learning a lot of skills that I would need later on in life, dealing with different sorts of people..even though I didn't appreciate it at all for the past few weeks. Now it's like a light has been turned on somewhere and I'm no longer in despair. I shall just do what I can and make the best out of the ton of things I'm doing this summer and of coz remember it all.

This week I've been reading Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist again and as always, I'm learning a lot with every chapter finished. 'When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it' I think this is so true. My interpretation---If you want something badly enough, you will get it in the end because you will find all ways to achieve it and your desire to achieve it rubs off on others too and unknowingly or knowingly, these people will help you in various stages to get what you want. Next week I'm gonna re-read The Warrior of light and head down to borders to get more books. I've just added 3 more books to my booklist..hopefully borders or kino stocks them otherwise I'll have to order from Amazon.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Had lunch with an old pal and then headed to clarke quay for singsoc mtg which we ended up having at yakun, squashed up in one corner and it lasted for ages. lol. Then after that, we headed to guan's place for sarah's farewell party. We had our own prata man and satay woman..which I think is the trend for most house parties now coz next sat I have another prata house party to go for..yummm. It was really fun talking to guan's very interesting parents and it was nice meeting up with so many lse singaporeans all at once..even though I wasn't that close to most of them in london.

And today I slept for like the whole morning and got up just in time to get out for lunch at shin with the family and then I drove my dad to the optician and nearly had an accident AGAIN. I am really getting freaked out by driving. This brings the total of near accidents to 4...and of coz more yelling from whoever's sitting in my car. So from now on, I shall only drive myself. No lifts for anyone! Sorry guys. But safety first ya?

I'm now looking forward to next week..which is pretty unusual by my standards. But for once in my life, I love nat day! coz i don't have to work on wed, thurs and fri. wahahahahaha. And I have gotten off successfully from teaching music!! yes! no more music lessons on retarded ndp songs and even more retarded dances. No more listening to kit chan or sunyanzi's ndp songs which I am SO SICK of now. And I got off for the ndp school celebrations itself on wed so that means I no longer have to make a fool of myself on the field. Really glad about this. I guess life can't get any better than this...and then I'm quitting my other job on thurs! yay to that too! can't wait.

And soon..london awaits.. I know how sometimes things I'm so sure of can just disintegrate the next minute but I've always been the one to take chances. It's not living if you don't feel alive. So anyway, I'm bearing in mind the words of a gd friend and lets just see where the road of life takes me and all of us..career-wise, love and everything else...There aren't any wrong decisions or wrong steps since every step we take will bring us closer to where we want to be even if it happens to be a longer route, a detour..the important thing is..we will still get there in the end.

Ychar;
Sunday, August 05, 2007