I like how it is with old pals. How words become unnecessary and the unspoken is so easily understood. How easy it is to pick up from where we left off even though its been so long and just sit and chat the whole night away until we're the only ones left. It felt like we had never stopped talking all those years back. I have missed this feeling. I really did. All those years when we stopped talking after you left. It was good catching up on all the lost times and filling each other in on what we have been doing with our lives and what we plan to do next. What seemed like a lost opportunity then now has turned out for the better. We've both made mistakes along the way, fallen onto the bad, lost touch but most importantly we both came back in the end..just like what shyam would say. I never knew life has been so hard on you and then I wonder if it would have been better if I had been around. I guess God has His plan for each and everyone of us even when it gets tough and we wonder why He's putting us through the test. I just hope you can persevere like how you used to and have courage in what will come next. Faith is a queer thing. But now I know we're all given equal doses of Faith..we just need to gather it all together before we lose ourselves.

We all have our superheroes and people we look up to. You could be a superhero to someone else even if that someone is too proud to tell you so. After teaching for so long, I've realised that I should never underestimate the power of influence a person can have over another. There will always be people who look up to you. Afterall, you were my superhero once and I guess I was one in some ways too. So even if you think you're not good enough and that you should stop bothering because nothing is working and everything is screwed up, don't give up because i know for sure that someone is still looking at what you do and figuring out if it should be followed and figuring out if it's right.

It's funny how all the circumstances have led and summed up our lives and now we can see each other so plainly and clearly. I guess studying abroad has its advantages too. I can count on one hand friends like you. Friends who don't have to be there 100% of the time to know what is going on and why I do the things I do and what I think when even my inner-self is confused.

I may seem like I have it all but I still feel lost. I feel damned. Who am I to talk about faith? Sometimes I don't know why I'm working and trying so hard. What if it all won't work out in the end? And with that easy charm, you point out what is lacking. A light turns on somewhere and it becomes bright and clear. Why hadn't I realised this before?










I didn't hear what you were saying.
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions never maybe
And I'm not kind if you betray me.
So who the hell are you to save me
I never would have made it babe.

Ychar;
Thursday, September 13, 2007