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YFriday, 28 March 2008

I'm in need of serious motivation and inspiration. I've been trying to start my revision..but i dunno if its because i'm getting older or what..but i've become less and less worried about my studies. Like as if the correlation between studies and job prospects are no longer there. hmm.

Anyhow, this week hasn't been so bad. Happier and more relaxed. I don't wanna spend too much time alone in my room..it really depresses me. Sometimes it feels like the walls are pressing down on me and i have to get out for a walk. Easter hols are for mugging..and that equates to hours sitting in my room since i can never concentrate in the library. Oh depression. Been emo-ing to utada hikaru's songs lately. Really love her voice and the way she changes her style with each album.

Sometimes i feel as if i'm standing on the edge. A tap on the shoulder might just send me right over. Will that be bliss or a plunge into the abyss? I'm afraid of uncertainty. I don't crave the excitement of not knowing what comes next anymore. Coz i've been let down so many times, i don't want to have expectations anymore. In my life, i'm just gonna do my very best in everything i do and accept whatever comes my way and in the end, after all the effort, i guess i can have it all. How sweet can it be if it's not achieved by hard work and sweat?

Ychar;
Friday, March 28, 2008

YFriday, 21 March 2008

Outside the University of Manchester which has a huge huge sprawling campus. Their student union has their own huge building which compared to LSE(i think we only have a room or something like that)..is huge..

At Old Trafford

The lights in the middle of the field are to special sun lights to fool the grass that it isn't winter. There was a match the night before so bits of grass had come off and they have to grow back quickly quickly for more matches this week especially Super Sunday. There are 40 water sprinklers in the field to ensure the grass has enough moisture. The grass is watered very very often, even during half time in a game. And then there are also water pipes beneath the field that pump warm water into the field to melt any frost or ice so that games are rarely cancelled due to bad weather.

I've just got back from manchester tonight. Finally visited my brother after nearly 2 years here and since he's graduating this year, i thought i'd better make a trip this easter break. Manchester was quite boring and very chillax. The only interesting thing was visiting Old Trafford and going for a tour of the stadium. That was pretty cool. The stadium is quite impressive inside when you sit down on the red and white seat and take in the magnificent red and whiteness of the whole stadium with Man Utd staring down at you from every corner. Too bad i didn't catch a match. The bad thing about Manchester is the WIND and the annoying constant drizzle that is neither here nor there. There is a lot more open spaces/fields in Manchester compared to London so the wind is particularly strong and icy especially when it comes with rain. I nearly froze to death while doing the Old Trafford tour. -_-. Well, it was a good break away from London, a good distraction and a good change of food. Had a lot of dimsum which was wayyy better than that in London. The har gao was humongous and yummy. The shopping malls also amazed me. I'm so used to shopping in the streets of London, strolling from one store to another with individual stores decked out along the road/lane..especially oxford street and covent garden. But in Manchester, all the stores are gathered into a giant megamall which was huge huge huge. Didn't shop though. Felt ridiculous for a londoner to be shopping in manchester..hahah. Also had my 1st krispy Kreme doughnut. Don't ask me how come I've never tried it in London..i'm just not a fan. And also, I have this image of gross, fat people queueing insanely for doughnuts and coming out with huge boxes and boxes of those fattening things. The thought of it used to make me feel like vomiting everytime i pass a doughnut shop..be it Krispy kreme or whatever doughnut shop. So anyway, i decided to try one. Krispy Kreme. hurhur. I bought one chocolate glazed doughnut, took a bite and..strongly resisted spitting it out. YUCK. It's so sweet!! I can't understand how people can eat that.

Anyhow, my 2nd year in uni is nearly coming to a close. I'm already a week into my easter break. That leaves 1 week of mugging, 1 week in marseille and nice, 2 weeks of mugging, about 1 week with esther yeo, 3 weeks of revision classes and mugging, 2 weeks of mugging for 3 days of exams and then i'm done. Time does fly, doesn't it? Spending so many hours on the bus to and back from manchester left me thinking a lot about my future, career-wise, family-wise and also about what i've accomplished so far this year....which hasn't been much. Anyway, when i arrived at kilburn after coming back from manchester, i was hungry so i stopped by my fav chef chan takeout place. It was such a coincidence to bump into this guy i got to know while attending the private equity conference in LSE last year. He's a research fellow, going to become a professor soon. Really cool eccentric guy. His expertise is in the laws and rules/regulations governing IPOs so we exchanged contacts after I excitedly told him about my summer internship. So cool. I guess such conferences aren't a waste of time..haha..really good for networking and getting to know people other than those in my course.

It's getting harder to appreciate the present and appreciate the little things around me and also to appreciate the mundane details of my daily routine. As always, I'm thinking ahead, deep into my future. I wonder what my life will be in 5 years time and 10 years time. Will it be filled with love and colour? Will I still get butterflies in my tummy when I'm nervous or stressed? Will I become more serious and boring?....................

Ychar;
Friday, March 21, 2008

YSaturday, 1 March 2008

Oho~~It takes 4 years to be able to say this! Today is 29th Feb!! cheers to leap years although i think those ppl born on this day must be very cham..coz they have to wait 4 yrs to be able to celebrate their bday. waha.

Anyway this week has been not bad. happy happy week. Heard some incredible news that the JI detainee escaped and is loose in singapore. my gosh. When i heard it, i thought it was just a joke coz sg police are highly efficient(compared to the police here in uk who wait til 40ppl are raped before they catch the rapist)..looks like he did a prison break with the help of a well tattooed friend. And the centre where he escaped from is a bit near my house..so lots of police have been patroling the whole neighbourhood. so exciting.

I am anticipating utada hikaru's new album thats coming out on march 19th! Her new single is so addictive..Heart station!! love it so much. Anyhow its friday again! End of week 8..and counting down til i dunno when exactly. I'd better enjoy london as much as i can before its time to say bye.

Ychar;
Saturday, March 01, 2008