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YFriday, 28 March 2008

I'm in need of serious motivation and inspiration. I've been trying to start my revision..but i dunno if its because i'm getting older or what..but i've become less and less worried about my studies. Like as if the correlation between studies and job prospects are no longer there. hmm.

Anyhow, this week hasn't been so bad. Happier and more relaxed. I don't wanna spend too much time alone in my room..it really depresses me. Sometimes it feels like the walls are pressing down on me and i have to get out for a walk. Easter hols are for mugging..and that equates to hours sitting in my room since i can never concentrate in the library. Oh depression. Been emo-ing to utada hikaru's songs lately. Really love her voice and the way she changes her style with each album.

Sometimes i feel as if i'm standing on the edge. A tap on the shoulder might just send me right over. Will that be bliss or a plunge into the abyss? I'm afraid of uncertainty. I don't crave the excitement of not knowing what comes next anymore. Coz i've been let down so many times, i don't want to have expectations anymore. In my life, i'm just gonna do my very best in everything i do and accept whatever comes my way and in the end, after all the effort, i guess i can have it all. How sweet can it be if it's not achieved by hard work and sweat?


Ychar;
Friday, March 28, 2008