At the end of the day, i dunno if i can rmb anything that i've read/analysed/mugged. Studying really sucks. I don't really have any right to whine seeing as we lse students only study intensively for 2 months a year..but still.. :( :( :(. I'm feeling miserable. I've nv stayed alone in my room so much before. And when i do, depression usually sinks in. It's just me, mike and the cat now coz of the whole bedbugs and the extermination adventure. which doesn't count for much. Still depressed and miserable. Plus i've overspent like crazy coz of exam stress..thank goodness for brotherly love, otherwise i dunno how i can survive the next few weeks here. Speaking of which, i'll only be in london for exactly 2 and a half more weeks and then hong kong beckons. Suddenly looking back, time seems to have flown. hmm. I just hope time will slow down when an important period comes and i can be happy again. Again, i need a change of environment. London wears me down sometimes and this is one of those times. When i go, i will miss bake-a-boo, the lovely bakery near my place which i brought beh to. i will miss sainsburys. i will miss the sound of the ice cream truck that passes under my window everyday. i will miss strolling in covent garden, exploring camden and portobello and other interesting bits of london. i will miss chatting in starbucks and shopping like mad and purposefully ignoring the pounds to sgd exchange rate. Most of all, i will miss my room. The place where i've spent the most time this year. Sometimes it drives me mad, and sometimes its my place of comfort and solace and warmth and yellow winnethepooh goodness. Ok, now that i might have to move house after the summer...i'm appreciating the comforts of my room..but still..depressed... -_-.

Been sleeping a lot more than usual lately to make the days shorter and so i can study less. Been doing a lot more reflection on my life and esp on this year. Don't feel like i'm turning 21 in a few months. Its gonna be a birthday shadowed by work i suppose. But it doesn't matter. I'll have a nice long holiday after. I feel kinda unfulfilled. Like i could have done a lot more with this year but instead wasted my time on frivolous pursuits. Sigh. And being a 2nd year will end in 2 weeks.

Right now, i'm just waiting to pack up my life into bags and boxes and leave again.